As I pen this, I am preparing to depart on a connection from Green Bay to Detroit on a plane with a noticeably high percentage of runners. They just completed the Cellcom Green Bay Marathon or Half Marathon and are full of bliss as they venture home with bling around their necks.
Me… I’m conflicted. Happy with life in its entirety, but conflicted with my running life.
- My shin is hurting again in the same way it did before my hiatus. It doesn’t hurt when I’m actually running, but is quite sensitive to the touch. Without a doubt, an x-ray is in my very near future… enough with self-diagnosis (such a typical dude move).
- My level of running fitness simply sucks. When I run, I suck wind and labor like I smoked a pack of reds. I haven’t bounced back as my optimistic noodle envisioned.
- Given the above, Captain Henry and I deferred our marathon adventure from this past weekend to a future date – hopefully, the Fox Cities Marathon in September. This decision absolutely gutted me.
- I feel like I’ve lost my running mojo. It’s tough for me to get out the door. My legs are heavy and I’m feeling like an aging car that just can’t accelerate like it used to… my 2006 Ford Fusion (with 200k miles) and I have something in common 🙂
- In the last week, my mind was again doubting my ability and desire to return to form. A sensitive shin didn’t help. I’m not used to being injured and am really, really horrible at it!
- Then, this weekend came. Being in the proximity of a running event, but on the other side of the rope – as a spectator and volunteer – I was like a dog. A dog that just needed to hunt… if not for this damn leash! The instinct remains and an ember still exists for stoking the fire.
Seeking your wisdom…
Those are the facts and the feelings.
Now, I kindly ask for your wisdom and counsel.
What should I do now?
Do I run the HFM Maritime Marathon on June 12 as originally planned? Knowing that…
- My shin doesn’t hurt when running, but there is likely risk associated with proceeding.
- My time isn’t going to be anything to write home (or blog!) about due to lack of training, but I can still have fun.
- I will may need a longer break after to truly get past this injury.
(Insider info not meant to sway your input – It’s my favorite race, I’ve been blogging on the race’s site, and it would be my fifth straight…kind of a fun, dorky milestone.)
Or do I layoff now in hopes of a better autumn running season?
What would you do?
So, here I am sitting on plane… vulnerable, conflicted, and seeking advice via a blog. 🙂
And my final destination today… Boston. Go figure!